Thought via Path

Well.. it’s been a while. Sometimes the insecure feeling reap my thoughts and I could sob uncontrollably and you have no idea why. You reassure me everything’s gonna be alright and you will always be here by my side, giving me the accompany—with the most genuine smile. At my breakdown I knew you never thought it could have been that bad, but you managed it though. You see, I’m no different with others. I just hide it behind the great wall, and you just knocked the small door at the bottom of it. So I opened it for you, and told you to take the risk. You accept it, and now you see me. – Read on Path.

Thought via Path

What do you want? Again. Until whenever I won’t let anybody ruin my life! – Read on Path.

Thought via Path

You know? Until whenever. Whatever how sweet your words, I would not back. My final words; “Revenge accomplished” :) – Read on Path.

Reading Where She Went by Gayle Forman

And the sequel just made me mixed up with those flashback memories :’( (wondering if there’s someone that willing to stay) – View on Path.

First you inspect me
Then you dissect me
Then you reject me
I wait for the day
That you’ll resurrect me.
Hate me. Devastate me. Annihilate me.
Re-create me. Re-create me.
Won’t you, won’t you, won’t you re-create me.

- Animate, Collateral Damage; on Where She Went

Letting go. Everyone talks about it like it’s the easiest thing. Unfurl your fingers one by one until your hand is open. But my hand has been clenched into a fist for three years now; it’s frozen shut. All of me is frozen shut. And about to shut down completely.

- Where She Went

Can we just stay like this for a while?”
“All night long if you want. We’ll tell our secrets to
the dark.”
“Okay.”
“So let’s hear another one of your irrational fears.”
Mia grasped me by the arms and pulled herself in to my chest, like she was burrowing her body into mine.
“I’m scared of losing you,” she said in the faintest of voices.
I pushed her away so I could see her face and kissed the top of her forehead.
“I said ‘irrational’ fears. Because that’s not gonna happen.

- Adam to Mia; Where She Went, Gayle Forman
RAMSEY YOU LOOK MUCH HOTTER AREN’T YOU

My first impulse is not to grab her or kiss her or yell at her. I simply want to touch her cheek, still flushed from the night’s performance. I want to cut through the space that separates us, measured in feet—not miles, not continents, not years—and to take a callused finger to her face. I want to touch her to make sure it’s really her, not one of those dreams I had so often after she left when I’d see her as clear as day, be ready to kiss her or take her to me only to wake up with Mia just beyond reach.

Where She Went - Gayle Forman

putrianggra, 2014

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Mantep juga nih. Kapan-kapan jalan kesana aaaah…

Pecu(liar)

Where should I start?
Something weird, strange. Something that you never know would come in particular. Something that has many question of it. Something… infinite.

Why infinite?

Too random. I am blinded.

I am blinded by your presence.

I don’t know what kind of species are you, what kind of alien are you, what kind of human are you. I don’t know if I should recall you human.

Being with you…

It’s like an endorphin. I need it more and more.

I feel it like a fresh air, at my breathless life.
At my hopeless limit. At my careless personality. At my lack of happiness. Li(f)e.

My hands were strong, I’m gripping your heart. But don’t know what thing that you call it as heart.

My limped step, you help me to walk. But don’t know how do you even stand.

You are my shining star. But don’t know how do you have your own light.

Your words are so soothing and warm. I want to be with you. Forever. Like you ever said everyday.

Like you always whisper to me until I’m asleep.
Like you always wish between our prayers.

"I love you."

Smooth as silk, stab as a knife. That’s what I feel when you’re lost all of sudden.

How would you fake it all.
How would you fake it all…

"Anggra mau kan, menghabiskan sisa hidupnya sama aku?"

You took my heart and you held it in your mouth
And, with the word all my love came rushing out
And, every whisper it’s the worst, emptied out by a single word
There is a hollow in me now

So I put my faith in something unknown,
I’m living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m tired of hope with nothing to hold,
I’m living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,
And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
You’re giving me such sweet nothing.

It isn’t easy for me to let it go
Cause
I’ve swallowed every single word
And, every whisper, every sigh
Eats away at this heart of mine.
And there is a hollow in me now

So I put my faith in something unknown,
I’m living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m tired of hope with nothing to hold,
I’m living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,
And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
You’re giving me such sweet nothing.

And it’s not enough
To tell me that you care,
When
We both know the words are empty air.
You give me nothing.

[Calvin Harris - Sweet Nothing]

Thank you for being there for a moment. For the blink of the eye.

I hope you’re not what I thought. What I assume.

"why you always thought of bad things when it comes to me?" You always said.

yeah, we can call it so.

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Anomaly - Incubus

A cloud hangs over,
It’s a city by the sea,
I watch the ships pass and wonder if she might be, (might be)
Out there and sober as a well for loneliness,
Please do persist girl its time we met and made, a mess.

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize,
Anomaly, Anomaly, Anomaly.

A cloud hangs over,
And mutes my happiness,
A thousand ships couldn’t send me back from distress,
Wish you were here,
I’m a wounded satellite,
I need you now put me back together make me right

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize,
Anomaly, Anomaly, Anomaly,
I’ll crawl to your name,
I’ll bend to the earth,
Not one of the others could ever compare,
Anomaly, Anomaly

Wait there is a light,
There is a fire illuminated attic,
Fate or something better I couldn’t care less,
Just stay with me a while,
Wait there is a light, there is a fire,
Defragment dreams the attic,
Fate or something better I couldn’t care less,
Just stay with me a while.

I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic a proof of the prize,
Anomaly, Anomaly, Anomaly,
I’ll crawl to your name,
I’ll bend to the earth,
Not one of the others could ever compare,
Anomaly, Anomaly

Wait there is a light there is a fire
Defragment dreams the attic,
Fate or something better I couldn’t care less,
Just stay with me a while…

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